Most people make a really big deal out of their astrological sign. I am no exception. 
I’m a gemini. 
I like long walks on the beach. 
And a bold merlot … 

But really … I have, at the very least, a dualistic personality. Maybe its the fact that I’ve been an entertainer since I was a little kid. I started off acting around the age of 6 and transitioned to music at about 12 years old. In both of those roles the only consistent aspect of my life was inconsistency. I was awarded for playing different characters and relating to people through various different perspectives. Once I found out that I could make advances in my life by using those skills, they started to become something I used on a daily basis. And then something really terrible happened … I stopped being able to control who I switched to and when I made the switch. If I stayed in one identity for too long I started to get bored, or feel anxious. Introduce some substance abuse and alcohol into the mix, and the results became even more random and, at moments, hostile. 

I felt for a long time like I lost the real me somewhere among the characters I created to entertain and impress people. And then something really awesome happened … I realized that this vacillation was the cornerstone of my personality. Sure it’s unstable, immature and quasi-hazardous, but a tiger can’t really fuck with his stripes. I’ve learned to embrace the fact that I need to create different identities to deal with my life, and I try to use it to my benefit instead of hating on myself and searching for a consistent personality. 

All of this bullshit inspired “Role Player”. There are times when I acted contrary to every belief I’ve stood by just to play a different character. There are times when I’ve purposefully hurt myself to fit a certain mold. And there are times when I lost some of the most important people in my life because they couldn’t deal with my eccentricities. Most people would say that I’m unhappy … That I hate myself … Which is why I run away from who I really am and hide in these imaginary characters. But to be honest, it’s just become a way of life for me. Just like battle becomes normal to a soldier, or flying becomes normal to a pilot, or mediocrity becomes normal to most people living in America. 

Say what you may about my mode of operation, but with every role comes a plethora of experience and a brand new chance to discover the role I’m going to play for the rest of my life. 

Lyrics:
i got these sad eyes
so i go with it
i never see blue skies
only grey days on my calendar
i never eat nothing
just so i look like a starving artist
only got bones to show
my hair i would grow
but that just isn’t who i am today

its just a role i play
the person that i am today
is gunna change in the morning
consistency is so boring
maybe ill change my name
cut my hair 
you’ll find me signing up for the army
its still a role I play
hated who i was yesterday 
so im starting over

i got this new term
go head and run with it
some guys play girls
some guys play cards
but they never ever wind up winning
so im a role player
im a real sooth sayer
could be someone you like
someone you’d spite
or just somebody you’d take home tonight