PropertyOfZack Track-By-Track : : Stickup Kid (Part III)

by Zack Zarrillo - May 31, 2012


Stickup Kid will be releasing their Nothing About Me EP via Adeline Records on June 5th. PropertyOfZack is stoked to be releasing the full Track-By-Track guide and stream to give insight on the songs that make up the EP. Check out the full feature and song streams below!

I wrote this song shortly after I started a long (and ongoing) battle against Major Depressive Disorder, and General Anxiety Disorder. However, at the time this was written, I did not know I was dealing with either one of those. When I get in a depressed/anxious mindset, my mind goes 100 miles per hour, and I basically can’t abandon any thoughts. I literally get stuck thinking and it overrides everything going on right in front of me. My thoughts tend to control me, and that is what Breathing is about, hence the whole “I’m stuck inside my head” theme. In that time period, which was when I started college and lived in a dorm, I had so many thoughts in my head that sometimes I would just sit in my dorm all day without eating. I would just sit there and let my mind talk itself into feeling worthless. I came to the realization that if I kept staying inside all the time, someone might as well dig my grave and bury me right there in my room. The song is called “Breathing” because when I have these problems, my chest tightens which makes it hard to breathe. - Tony Geravesh

I wrote these during one of the darkest periods of my life, where everything around me was uncertain. I was in a relationship with this girl, and neither of us were truly ready to dive deep into it, but we dove deep anyways. This ended badly. She started acting, dressing, becoming someone she wasn’t, and I began subconsciously evading her. This song is pretty much a letter to that girl (since we seldom speak anymore) saying that I’m not going to give away a piece of myself to her again, because the feeling of being ruined by her overcame the good times in our relationship. The skeleton of these lyrics were taken from the first lyrics I ever wrote, so when I read these lyrics, it kind of pays homage to the younger, purer me, that I felt I lost while spending time with this girl. - Tony Geravesh

Dreaming Of Kenny Rogers
This song was written after the 3rd go around of a reoccurring dream I was having. In the dream I woke inside of this girl’s room (we had stopped dating about 5 months prior at this point), only to wake up in my own room shortly after (much like Inception).  It felt pretty nice being there again (Obviously I wasn’t the one who called off our relationship or whatever you would call it) but we only dated for maybe two months, and yet here I was five months later still thinking about being back there/missing her. The basic message of the song is “hmmm, I guess I’m not over it” haha. The title comes from an episode of Reno 911 and the Wilhelm Scream song “Dreaming Of Throwing Up”. - Jonathan McMaster

You Are Captain Hook
Oh this is a fun one haha. This was written after the end of a short, and very strange, relationship last year. There are people who need particular roles filled/certain things given to them in their life, and who they get it from isn’t all that important, they just have to have it. And this can manifest itself in a ton of ways (people that go through “best friends” every few months, people who just can’t seem to exist without a boyfriend/girlfriend, people that crave attention). This is a song about not being one of those people and feeling like you could be replaced at any given moment, and feeling like you’re being kept around without any intention of ever really being let in. The words/melody in the chorus are intentionally kind of childish because the whole situation (on both our ends) felt kind of high schoolish. The song title comes from the fifth season of How I Met Your Mother (the episode is called “On The Hook”). - Jonathan McMaster

The Weather Outside Is Weather
This one is also a total bummer (surprise surprise, the fun never ends! haha). It’s the same girl as the last song, but a few months earlier. Things came together quickly and really awesomely and fell apart even quicker and awfully (obviously not for long haha). This was written the morning after the initial fallout, on a long walk by myself, 800 miles from home (she lives two states over). I hadn’t been that excited about someone in awhile and it hurt to have all of that taken away so suddenly, and it was the worst defeat at the end of a series of them (hence the “never my fault, always my price” line in the song). There is an Alkaline Trio song that has a line that is super close to the whole “stay up here forever/ended with the week” part of the song, but I didn’t change it because I quoted her word for word there haha. Hopefully Matt Skiba isn’t narrating your life as well (but he probably is, that’s why they are the best band). The title comes from the best break up movie of all time, Forgetting Sarah Marshall. - Jonathan McMaster

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